self-hatred
earn sympathy
geek out
cope with
hit/bash over the head
right off the bat
(of a person) deal effectively with something difficult
to gain feelings of favor, support, or loyalty
to emphasize repeatedly or strongly to
to behave in a very enthusiastic way about something that you are interested in and know a lot about but that other people might find boring
immediately, right now
hatred directed toward oneself rather than toward others